BIRTHDAY - I AM 19!

Sooo... i turned 19 2 days back! (11th march) It is no different being 19 than 18 just that you're not longer protected by the law aka i am moving towards adulthood and i have to take more ownership and control. Maybe that's why I'm starting to take more things into my own hands for e.g. 1. i really want to get a nose piercing and i may get it after my internship ends!!!! and 2. i want a tattoo that says "remember why, forget how" on idk which part of my body because it's such a short phrase so i dont want it to look odd :[ so yes, those are the 2 semi-weird things that i've been wanting to do since i turned 19. On a more serious note, though, turning 19 means a new world of adventures for me. I really believe that the world is my oyster and i don't ever want to lose that passion and sparkle that (i know) i have. May i also grow and have a stronger walk with God and a sensitive ear to the spirit. May I also become a better person - one with more good values and stronger sense of morals, and to never lose sight of myself no mater the circumstances. Here's to a 19 year old, new and improved, Jean! 

Hung out with M on my birthday (hahah, surprise surprise) and it was just really simple! But i enjoyed every bit of it :) we met and had lunch at Indobox, which had really nice indonesian cuisine for a very reasonable price. We each got a main and a side to share, and 2 glasses of Iced milk tea and it amounted to $40? That is super reasonable!! And esp because the restaurant is located at ION where the price of food is really inflated. Told M that i would take a picture of him and the food but i only focused on the food and his reaction after that cracked me up :3 

Then he took revenge: 

But we managed to take proper pics for each other after that!! It's always such a joy to hang out with M because he's just basically a super nice and genuine person sigh what would i do without him :') 

OK, off to continue with my Uni apps! I need to say this.. omg, singaporeans are SO lucky because the government places so much emphasis on the education system and keeps the fees affordable for all! There are also so many schemes in place like bursaries, financial aids and scholarships to help people that want to study but may not necessarily have the capabilities to!! This is a first hand experience i am experiencing now because i'm looking at university fees etc etc. WOW, i am glad i am singaporean... :) 

Ok goodbye all X

RESULTS & the way forward

Hey guys! The past 2 weeks were super eventful with so many things happening, like the collection of results, university open house etc etc etc. It was such a mouthful and I'm glad i am kind of more settled now and hence able to sit down, reflect and craft this post. Ok so i collected my A levels results on the 4th of March and that was a super nerve-wrecking day... 

I mean.. just check out my face relative to Nina's!!! HAHAHA i was like shit shit shit, and i remembered repeating "I'm done, i'm so done, i'm going to lose my mind" (!!!) I was really worried i couldn't do as well (as i wanted to) because of the new found desire to maybe wanna pursue law etc etc :[ it just sucks being denied the opportunity because of your results seriously. BUT thank God that God is God and when i am faithless He is always always faithful. :] i did well and i am so thankful! Though i got a bad grade for my Math, it is a "good pass" for university standard and i am still able to apply to computing if i want to (which i have since dropped the idea because of different reasons)! 

 thanked many of my beloved teachers after results and hung around for a little bit. Saw Sandra and she was being a gem! Hehe really hope that she studies super hard and does super well :3 

Aaaaand is there still a necessity for me to say how proud I am for this one here!!!!? Thank you for always being genuinely happy for me and always being so proud of me no matter the circumstances! Let me just say - you did your best, and i know that. No matter how some grades may be undesirable, i know that you did your best and it'll bring you wherever you want to go! And you managed to make a couple of teachers proud of you as well :3 And you did not give up what you loved for this 2 month affair... So you got the best of both worlds - something not everyone have the privilege to have. Here's to growing up together :B 

The following day, M and I checked out SMU's open house. Because of our (more or less) perfect knowledge of SMU bc of SMOOOO PASTA and the relatively small campus, it was easy for us to maneuver around and we were done with the booths that we were interested in so off to SMOOOO we go! M also got a haircut after the open house and i rushed off to work after that. Gave NTU a miss because they did not have any courses that interest us!! 

Had internship on 3 days the past week and it was really tiring because i had to face the computer for quite long hours on some days :[ however tough it is (or may get), i know that the internship will teach me things and cause me to be a stronger and more persevering individual!!! So i will press on. 

Thoughts after internship?: I don't know what i'd do after internship, i'll probably work more and exercise more - put more focus into my fitness lifestyle once again. Head over to E1 for some deadlifts and squats on a more regular basis :3 I can't wait for internship to end!!! Then i'd have more time for self-discovery / meditation / rest before Uni starts. 

Went over to the NUS open house yesterday and i was so thrilled by Utown! It was really nice and it had a college-ly, Barbie diaries, feel to it. I really liked the Residential Campuses but they are really expensive to stay in :[ I really hope i get the scholarships that i (will) apply for because it will really lessen my load a lot + motivate me to study harder to retain it. I am still unsure about many things as of now, possibly because of the uncertainty whether or not law school will be where i will be entering because of how competitive and limited it is :[ it's okay though - i trust that God will pave and grace the way, wherever i go.

To end this off, big thanks + shout out to M for always being there for me and giving me talks that both encourage and empower me to achieve my dreams! May i grow to become such a person for you as well :,) 

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