Sunday, April 26, 2015

SAMUN 2015 / weekends

Last week was such a blur, there were so many events taking place that I lost track of time. Now that I recall and think about it, it seems like I have not done anything at all... Maybe it's true how when one thing matters so much in a period of time, it doesn't exactly matter THAT much later on. 

The stress and expectations were overwhelming last week and I am just glad that everything is over, thank you whoever for keeping me in prayers, and thank you for the unending grace, mercy and kindness that you have paved my way with. 
Never have I collapsed in fear, in sadness. Never had I have to see a team fall to their knees in disappointment; face to face with a cheater, what are we supposed to do? Do we scream? Do we defy or do we simply give in because there was naught we could do? The last whistle sounded, and it broke my heart so much when I had to come into terms with what I saw in front of me. All's good now, life goes on and it does not wait for anyone. Thank you for cheating on me, life. Valuable experience it was, unforgettable, without a doubt.

Moving on, Saints mun 2015 was so fun! Though I have not been to any MUN conferences before, I have no regrets spending 24 hours of my life taking part in this event. It was a valuable experience; spending time with like-minded (i really wish i could say this!!!) individuals:) I felt like I learnt a whole deal as well, and it helps that I got placed into the UNSC, which is the organization that I will be studying in my UN case study paper so it really helps that I had a closer insight into what is really going on in that council. I also had fun with M on Saturday night and that was :) :) :) to say the least.

Hoping with all my heart that this coming week would be a good one, and I wish the same for every single one of you X 

Sunday, April 12, 2015

easy days don't make you tough



 2 happy pictures!!!!!!
I remember when they were taken, it was during National Day'13 and a random Math lesson in the computer lab (which evidently Jel, Shal and I did not see a point in paying attention) in sec 4, I suppose it was some time after recess because I remember me being real energetic and happy. 
Time has past really quickly and it already is 2015... it is such a pity how people I vow to never lose in 2013.. I don't even talk to those people anymore, but I don't really have any regrets I guess because I think I figured that people who are here to stay will stay and those that does not, they have their own set of companions that they want to stick with, and what matters most is that they are happy.

My thoughts are so amateur, so juvenile.. I can envision myself reading back on this post in a month's time and laugh at myself for writing such things down.. haha 
I blame the excessive amounts of estrogen in my body now 

Got back some of my Block test results last week and they were not ideal.. I am quite upset by it but I have got to get back up from my own 2 feet and improve from there. I hope I do not get upset from results again!!! I!!! WILL!!! WORK!!!!! 
Hung out with M yesterday and gave him a life lesson on how not to be bullied by people. I honestly feel quite bad sometimes because I always throw tantrums at him just because I am in a bad mood and he wouldn't do anything except understand that I am in a bad mood :-/ I must stop doing that sigh :-(