ugh

Went to church today and learnt / realised that I can and am empowered by the things by God. People put their strengths and worth in many things, I for one place mine in religion. Religion is something I hold very close to me; a very basis for a better life. I have questioned and thought of the 'many thin lines' that are controversial. e.g there is a thin line between doing things out of love for God and hatred for the devil, or there is a fine line between loving God and loving what God can provide.

I hope I never do find the answers to these questions though, because I understand that when I do, many things will change. It would mean(maybe) that I am intelligent (enough). I am unsure. Nonetheless, I am happy and blessed now :-) and that is all that matters is it not? That one is happy. School is on again tomorrow, and I honestly cannot wait for the day where I am just doing things I love and only that. Can't wait for university where things that interest / things i love is being taught. Cannot wait until I only feel nothing but excited for school. Don't get the point of working on things you have the least bit of interest in, i.e Project work. Never someone big on ideas, and boy, is this one big trouble. Shall try my best nonetheless, God is my strength. Aware also that I am sounding pretty silly right now, like that of a child but is that not what all yearn to be like again? 

Getting back to work, wish me luck / keep me in your prayers y'ones! x