Spring

Trees are losing their shine, pastel pink flowers that once umbrella over the greens now make way for the harsh cold. I never thought words could hurt this bad, never knew meaning second to the only one you regard first could kill you inside. The skies are pink now, maybe they do love you too, see, darling, maybe that's why they're bleeding. I find comfort in my sorrow, it shows that I still have an ounce of something; an emotion of some sort to grip onto. Corny, a cliché; life. is. fragile. Trying to take things simply now, without an iota of indifference and trying not to flare, trying to bleed till I'm dry, trying to consume myself from within. When you left you took the part of my soul that made me live/ love, you took one of the few things that dictated to others that I was still alive. I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying, I really am, I seem to shout, you seem to echo it too. 

Let's be a better person for each other, 

I'll be a better person for you. 

I promise  

i will probably still adore you with your hands around my neck

i havent blogged for awhile now. i turned 17 a few days ago. i never thought 17 year old's can still be this childish. never knew that 'keep out' has to be emphasised. don't let anyone rip you of your joy. i want a pair of Nike free runs. i am enjoying myself at football. why is it that when you pretend to be someone better at a certain thing you're doing, you get better? wit beyond measure is men's greatest treasure. i feel on task, but am i? i am loved. my 17th birthday celebration had been simple yet not comprehensible. i would not want it any other way. school is fine. it is not sucking the life out of me. and it wouldn't.

my breathing intensifies, it is always you, all i do it's all for you. the thought of 'you' is so closely knitted with all my thoughts, when i speak, your voice is laced around mine; like a cell membrane would be of the nucleus. it encloses, protects. like rain pouring on a sleep-in morning, you sooth and awake me in comfort. i squint and saw a shape of what i perceived as heaven. 

happy; smiles, measured laughter. happy.

i can be happy-sad, happy-excited, happy-disappointed. but happy is stuck on like Velcro unto me, it is what secures you and I. 

i doubt anyone can be as happy as we have been. 

mandatory new years post

2013 had been such a blur, it took on the speed of the bullet train blasting thru the midnight fog because the train driver overslept for his shift. however it did not bother me how fast the year flew past as i didnt want 2013 to be drag either. i dealt with many things and got over myself this year, i'd like to believe that i have became a better person. i am still at it though, better is never enough. 2013 had taught me many things, i've grown closer to God and saw Him a bit more than i did the year before 2013; 2012. 2012 seemed so long ago now, everything is such a blur. if people can only realise that every day of their lives is just going to slither past before they even know it, maybe they would dedicate it to serving the one of the higher intelligence, which is God himself who so love all of us.

it is inevitable to talk about resolutions in this post. never have i been an avid creator of new year resolutions simply because i dont believe in them. i believe in the fact that anyone and everyone can change who they want to be and set out goals they want themselves to achieve at any point of their lives. new years day is just another day. however i chanced upon a photo yesterday and decided to make that my new years resolution. i'm going to learn to love myself more, come to terms with myself over certain aspects of things i never think i can and also be a better person on a whole; however controversial 'better' can be.

i spent the last day of 2013 with the person i spent the year loving. it was great despite squeezing through the sock smelling crowd and also the smell of nose piercing cigarettes stench. despite having to stand all the way back, and catching a (possibly better) view of the fireworks and after which having to squeeze with the whole of singapore to get to the mrt station, i still wouldnt want it any other way. here's to another year of greatness, and i hope all of you people reading this would have a year as splendid as the one i know i will have.