listen to my voice it's my disguise

To: anyone who is possibly reading this

O levels are pretty much over considering the fact that i have just one last paper left, feeling idle almost every day unless i am reading/ watching a movie or out with my friends. i really would like a job but on the other hand i wouldn't because there are just so many things i actually want to do. shall make a list.

1. go cafe hopping 

2. watch people

3. be nice. love people.

4. spend more time with people i haven't had the chance to spend time with

5. read.

I really want to start writing again, it's been far too long since i have had the chance to pen down complete thoughts. either that or when a thought so beautiful pops up in my head, i just let it linger and diffuse into a part of me; not just a thought anymore, because i dont want to try to grasp it and try to make sense out of it, because everything beautiful turns to dust every time i try to make sense out of it. I have learnt to stop trying to make sense of things that happen because i do not anymore see the rationale behind trying to understand everything about life. getting a better perspective, definitely. but not anymore about finding the reason to because it's always better to 

remember seek; forgetting find 

I am just so so glad that O levels are over, cannot ever emphasize this enough. Because now i can finally slog around and not feel guilty at all and i can do things that i think i will possibly enjoy and that include looking at things and try penning them down unto sketches as well as words. what runs in the blood is often put forth as simply as simple can get; in words. currently working on a playlist i am giving to someone special, hope it turns out perfect because that special someone deserves nothing less than perfect :)

till next time!